Saturday, September 1, 2012


It is official - we are moving back to Nebraska!  I knew we were going to be moving at some point in the next few months, but since our house sold and I was offered a job yesterday, we are for sure heading back now in the next two to three weeks!  Todd doesn't have a job yet but has a few good prospects.  I am sure he will find a job soon.  We will very temporarily live with my parents and then move to an apartment for a short time until we find a house to buy. 

We are very excited as we didn't really ever want to move anyway.  We moved for Todd's job and it's been nearly two years since we moved.  We missed being by family and friends so much and just all things about Nebraska.  We wanted to move back and figured that would have a two to three year plan from this last summer but we found out that the real estate market was majorly on the rise here and decided to see if we could sell our house and if so, that would be a clue for us to move back sooner.

We listed out house for sale and before our house even showed online as being for sale, we had two showings. We had five showings within 4 days and within those four days we had two offers on our house, one for full asking price that we accepted.  We have made it through inspection and we have three weeks until we close. 

We will more than likely be out of the house about a week before closing so we can move all of our stuff back to Nebraska.  We will have to get a storage unit until we move into a house and coordinating that with moving into an apartment and getting the right stuff to the right place will be a challenge for sure.

We are excited and know the next few weeks will be stressful, but it will all be worth it in the end.  The things I am looking forward to the most are holidays and birthdays with the whole family.  It was s little depressing being alone the last two Christmas's.  No more!  We can't wait to be back!

Friday, August 17, 2012

4 Days!!

So the last post I wrote had a picture of our 'for sale' sign in our front yard.

After 4 days (actually closer to 3 since the listing didn't show online on the first day), we had two offers on our house and one of the two was exactly what we were hoping for so we accepted right away!

We are planning on moving back to Nebraska and now all we have to do us find jobs!!

Can't believe the house sold so fast!! The next month will be a whirlwind for sure since we close in just over a month. Either we find jobs and move right away or we get an apartment and stay here for a short time until we find jobs. We will just have to wait and see what happens.

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

On our way out......

Well, we are trying to sell our house! The market is good and we stand to make a good profit after only owning the house about a year and a half!

The listing just went up yesterday and we already had 1 showing with 2 more today. Hopefully that is a good sign!

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Happy 4th!

Happy 4th of July! 

I don't have a lot going on today since all of our family and friends are back in Nebraska doing fun stuff including shooting off fireworks while we are here in Colorado where all fireworks are banned.  :(

Todd is also working so I think I am going to take the kiddo to the pool soon.  It opens at 1 and closes at 5 so I think we will go for 2-3 hours, come home and I will shower and get ready for the evening.  We may go out to dinner and then to see one of the few major fireworks displays that was not cancelled in the Denver area.  I understand why they cancelled so many -it's a huge fire risk because it is so dry here, but it still makes me sad for so little going on because I guess that is just what I am used to and fireworks were a tradition for me for years just like it is for a lot of people.

Hope everyone out there has a happy and safe day!

Friday, June 29, 2012


All I can say is, I am having issues.  Lots of them.

My health is not the best.  I have been feeling down. 

I'm not sure what to do.  I don't know what to change, or maybe how to change.

I'm in a rut.  Why are things so hard sometimes?  Why can't life just be easy?

I know I'm the one who has to change my attitude and my behavior - no one else will do it for me.

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

What If????

I've been thinking a lot lately.  I've always been a thinker.  Sometimes I get in my own head too much.  Anyway, I've been thinking about my life, my job, being a mother and what I want from life going forward.

And all the while, I come up with a lot of 'what if's'.  I hate that I think so much sometimes, but I just can't help it.  These are the things that have been on my mind.

- What if I never have another child?  Will one feel like enough?  Will I feel incomplete?  Will Xander grow up to be normal with no siblings?

- What if I don't have another baby and never have a daughter?  How will I feel?  Will I wander through the rest of my life looking at cute dresses and headbands and shoes and think 'I will never get to dress a little girl in this adorable stuff'?

- What if I get fired from my job?  I don't think this is something that will really happen, but every once in a while I wonder and I hate this thought.  What would I do?

- What if I can never get a really good, long term handle on my diabetes?  Will I die young and leave my child without a mother?  What will happen if I am in poor control? 

- What if Todd loses his job?  What would we do?  What would he do?  Would we survive?

- What if we never move back to Nebraska?  Will I be happy here or someone else for the rest of my life?  I can't imagine never living in Nebraska again.  It's my home and I'm not sure I could stay away forever.

- What if I never really lose the weight I want to lose and stay this size the rest of my life?  Can I be happy anyway?  Will I always be depressed and feel bad about myself?

- What will I do without my parents and Todd without his parents?  I know our parents are aging, but I don't want to think about them getting older or losing any of them.  I don't know what we would do.

That's all.  I just wanted to get those thoughts out of my head.  I know everything will be ok and you can't live you life worrying about the bad things that could happen.  We should live each day like it's our last and not worry about the next day.  Planning is ok, but dreading is bad.  I just need to keep telling myself that.

Saturday, June 2, 2012

Xander's (super late) 3 year pics

Here is just a sample of the pictures we had taken for Xander's late 3 year pictures.  Actually, we didn't even have 2 year pictures taken of him because that is when we moved to Colorado and it kinda slipped through the cracks.  Oops!  Mom fail right there.

Anyway, the person who took them is my best friend's older sister.  She hasn't been doing pictures that long but she is awesome!  I can't wait to see the rest of them!

They were taken in downtown Lincoln, Nebraska in the Haymarket.  I thought that would be an awesome place for some pictures and as you can see, they did turn out great!

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

Can I Keep It??

This was in my garage last night when I got home from Nebraska. Only a $42,000 car!! I wish we could keep it, but alas, it was just for a test drive. We are going to look into a few different cars and we will eventually get one, just not yet. I do love nice cars though!

Friday, May 11, 2012

Friday thoughts

So glad it is Friday, but it has already been a busy one!

We are having a garage sale today and Todd is working it today and then tomorrow we will both work it. Hoping to clear a lot of junk!!

The weekend is supposed to be nice and cool but there is supposed to be some rain so we will see how that works with our garage sale.

Here's a few random pictures that I wanted to share.

Xander wearing a Santa hat in May (and yes in a pull up - still not potty trained fully - argh).

Sitting in a box.  Silly boy.

Playing with my cleaning gloves in our messy living room.

Jumping on his new trampoline!

Looking goofy when we went out to dinner last week.

Just me and my buddy!

Shopping with mommy and daddy at the outlet malls.

Monday, May 7, 2012

New patio set

We finally got a small patio set this weekend which is something we've wanted for a while! We waited and this set went on mega clearance and we also got Todd's discount so it was an awesome deal! Finally a place to sit and relax in the evenings or while the kiddo plays outside. I wasn't originally thinking I would want something with much color but I really like the blue!

Sunday, May 6, 2012

Sunday Randoms

I have been so bad about writing recently, but the only person I have to be sorry to is myself since this is my journal of my life.

- Xander and I were outside in the backyard yesterday, he playing in his new pool and me trying to get some sun.  Let's just say I got a little too much.  I'm not badly burned but a little pink.  The kiddo is good since I put sunscreen all over him.

- I finally started working on my two project life kits.  I bought one to use for last year and one for this year.  I had a ton of pictures from last year and a lot of ideas for the layouts, but just haven't had the time to get to it.  I am way behind this year, but love the simplicity of the format so I should be able to catch up quickly, especially since I have a week of vacation at the end of the month (actually longer than a week). 

- Speaking of my vacation, I am debating about whether or not I should head back to Nebraska for part of the time off.  I keep going back and forth.  On the one hand, I love seeing family and it is always relaxing to be a guest at someone else's house instead of always worrying about your own house.  On the other hand, I could get SO much more done if I stay home the whole time including lots of rest, several house projects, lots of scrapbooking and lots of one on one time with Xander which is so important.  I think I need to do a good old fashioned pro and con list to figure it out!

- My job is getting better after being so crazy and stressful for the last 6 months.  I have actually had the last two weekends off in a row and my job is supposed to be Monday - Friday!  I have worked so many weekends I have lost count.  I shouldn't complain because I have a good job that pays well, but I guess I didn't realize that I would work quite so much.  Anyway, we have a new guy and he is doing awesome and making my job so much easier.  I think the job will finally be what it should be within another month or so when everything is back to normal.

- It is may 6th and I still haven't painted my toenails yet!  I am not a big fan of pedicures, mostly because I don't have the time for them and I don't like paying for them, but normally I do my own toes.  It is on the agenda for today.

- I'm a little frustrated that my almost 3 1/2 year old still isn't fully potty trained.  He does good for the most part and pretty much stays dry/clean all day at daycare.  He actually struggles more at home in the evenings and on weekends.  I know he will fully get it eventually, but man I wish it was over.

- I need a new car!  Ok, not really, but I really want want!  I could go on and on about why I want/think I need a new car, but really, I just want a different type, not just a new one.  We have two cars and we really want an SUV.  There are so many things we can't fit in our cars that we should be able to if we get an SUV.

- I joined Weight Watchers a week ago.  My second weigh in, the scale said I was down 5.2 pounds.  Not sure how that is possible as I had a horrible first week, but I will take it!  I am already struggling again this week, but am committed to do better than last week (not weight loss wise, just eating better).  I also have to get the motivation to start working out again!

- My iPhone had a decent crack in it, but I took it to the Apple store and they replaced it for me for free!  I was so excited since this was my first phone and I had it for about 6 months and got the crack within the first week I had it.  I'm not sure why they replaced it free, but I was thrilled they did!  So now I just have to order a better case for it so I don't crack it again!

- It's pretty sad when you know all of the words to all of the songs on the Nick Jr. channel.  I wonder if my kiddo watches too many cartoons????  :)

- I got Invisalign on my teeth (invisible braces) a little over a month ago.  It's going pretty well with minimal pain and I am just trying to be patient with it realizing that the results will take a while.  But I am thrilled to know that by Christmas I will have pretty teeth for the first time in my life!  Some people said my teeth weren't that bad and they weren't compared to what they could have been, but I didn't like them and was always self conscious of them.  After this is done, I won't be!  I got to see the scan of what my teeth should look like at the end and I'm so excited!!

- I got a new Coach purse a week or so ago.  I hadn't bought one in a while and it is always fun to get something new!  I love the new purse I got and it is exactly what I wanted.  I am pretty picky with purses and only want certain styles and colors and I am happy with my choice.  I feel like I have to make a good choice every time because I carry the same purse for a long time and use it to death!

- That's all I got.  There isn't too much exciting going on now, but I am pretty sure this summer will be awesome.  I have a lot of plans and ideas and hoping I can make it a super fun/memorable summer. 

Monday, April 9, 2012

I'm Still Here

So I've really gotten out of this whole 'blogging' thing recently.  It feels like everything else has come first. 

I have so much going on that when I even think about writing, something else comes up.

Here I sit, the day after Easter with a sick kiddo.  He has pink eye and some form of cold I think.  I am planning on taking him to the doctor and working from home later.  It's good to be able to work from home, but bad timing for Xander to be sick because I have an audit coming up in two weeks and have so much to do!  I don't think we are going to be completely ready even if I work a million hours before then.

Anyway, I have so many things I want to do with my 'free' time but I really won't have much for the next 3-4 weeks due to work.  After that, I am finally taking some time off.  I want to take a week off of work to just sleep in, do work around the house and just do things I want to do which includes shopping for lots of household stuff like paint, decorations and some outdoor decor items too.  I never have to really browse and I want to look at stores during the week when it's not such a zoo so I have time and things aren't so rushed.  I feel like my project list is about a mile long.  While not all of the things on the list are must do items, many of them are things I really want to do sooner than later and have been on my list for a while.

I know I have said this before, but now we have lived in our house for over a year and I feel like it is not really even close to what I want it to look like.  Granted, everything I want to do or change takes money and even if I had the time, it's not like we may have had the money for all of it, but I know I could have done a lot of things by now if I had more time to plan.  I'm just ready for a break. 

In other life news, this is totally TMI, but Xander is mostly potty trained now (he was pretty slow to learn) but the funny part is, he has the number 2 down better than the number 1 and that usually comes later!  Either way, he is close and I am proud of his progress.  We changed daycares a few weeks ago and I think the old daycare was part of the reason he wasn't doing so well.  Hard to explain, but he has been doing much better at the new place.

Otherwise, life is just busy!  I had posted previously about the project life kits I had gotten but I haven't barely touched them and I haven't printed a single picture for the year yet (yikes - I am over three months behind), but I feel like it wouldn't take long to catch up, which is part of why I want some time off so bad.  I want to be able to catch up on scrapbooks along with all of my house projects.

I plan to write more in the near future, but we will see.

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

What a week!

It's been one of those weeks already!

I was sick last Friday with a stomach bug and haven't felt 'right' since then. Todd has had a nasty cold for a few days too.

Then my daycare lady texts me in the middle of the night Sunday saying her kids are sick. She then calls in on me for today also. I understand that kids get sick, but she wanted to charge me for both days even though she couldn't take my kid. I wouldn't be bothered if she called in but didn't charge me. If I have to take my kid somewhere else, then I have to pay double! I told the lady that it was time for us to put in our notice as she asks for three weeks. She got all mad at me and told me she was offended! She said that her other parents were supportive and that she didn't need someone making her feel bad. But I had to make a decision based on my own needs and the needs of my family. I have to have reliable daycare and she just wasn't reliable enough. What's sad is that she was nice and I think she was nice to my son, but we've had more than one issue with her and it was time to move on. I won't go into the other issues but it was enough to make the decision pretty easy.

Luckily I found a new daycare right away. Xander will start there tomorrow and I'm hoping he does ok with the change. I am sure he will but it was an abrupt cutoff for him so I'm hoping he's not too confused or upset.

Ugh. That was not fun as the lady was clearly not happy with me. I tried not to let it get to me and I had to look at it somewhat like a business decision because Todd and I both work pretty demanding jobs and need to have reliable daycare. The new place has longer hours too so that is good.

Hoping the rest of the week goes better!!

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

My crazy life

How is it that more than a month has gone by since I wrote? I know I've been busy but I guess I feel the way I always have. That my life is just not that interesting. There's probably only about one new thing with me.

I'm finally going to get invisalign for my teeth. I have wanted to get it for at least five years and this is the first year I feel like financially I've been able to do it. I wonder what it will feel like to have straight, pretty teeth for the first time in my life!? I can't wait. My consult is march 5th and hopefully I will start soon after.

Oh I lied. One more new thing. I have two small cavities that I am having filled next week. I've never had a cavity in my life until now! I'm not concerned about it so no big deal. It's just a first.

On the subject of life moving too fast, I'm excited to start my project life kits soon. My biggest challenge is taking and ordering the pictures. I have the kits and the pages and albums and just need to get started.

That's all I got!

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Project Life kits!

I got my two Becky Higgins project life kits today. Woohoo!! I have been terrible about doing scrapbooks the last year or so and I'm hoping these kits make it easier. I just need two albums and some of the page protectors. They are out of some of the ones I want so I will have to wait for them to come in but there are a couple of styles I can order now. Can't wait to start!

Oh and I ordered the cobalt and amber kits.

Sunday, January 1, 2012

Not going so well

I feel like 2012 is already off to a bad start, but I know it can get better.

I woke up with a stomach ache.
I realized that I basically just threw $100+ down the toilet because I didn't use my contact lens prescription benefit before the year was over so I lost it.
I'm so slow getting going that I haven't gotten anything done today.  I have so much I want to get done.

I know those are just minor annoyances, but the money one gets me.  When you are resolving to be smarter about money, stuff like the above mentioned situation just sucks.

I know things could always be worse and I am looking forward to things going better and making better decisions and choosing to stay positive this year.

To make sure I am actually getting stuff done that I need to get done, I am going to quit wasting time on the computer now and go be more productive.  :)